I have these moments. I call them “clarity moments”. They occur every now and then. They don’t happen regularly to be honest. They are quite elementary by their simplicity. I call them “clarity moments” because things are put in perspective, it is as simple as that. It doesn’t take me a lot to get it. In those rare moments, life suddenly becomes clear as day. My own troubles, tribulations and predicaments are put on the side. Suddenly, everything makes sense. I have one goal: enjoy life (and be thankful).
Those moments come out of nowhere. They land on my conscience and soul. They land unexpectedly, and they don’t make any fuss. They make me realize how short life is. They remind me that we, as people, are here temporarily. No one knows when our last day will start or how things will end. We just know that the game will end, and we won’t win. We will lose. There is nothing wrong with that. It is the cycle of life. We will all depart at some point, later rather than sooner, hopefully.
Those “clarity moments” are a reminder that life could pass me by. I could spend most of my time looking for answers to questions I barely understand. There is so much mystery in this life, but you know what isn’t a mystery? Enjoying life. That is no mystery. That one premise is easy to understand, and I believe it to be a universal need. Those clarity moments remind us that nothing is eternal. They remind us that things and people could very well disappear as abruptly as they appeared in the first place. The blessings we are enjoying now could vanish the way darkness does when light appears. Those blessings could flee the way dark clouds do after a heavy rain.
During those clarity moments, I only have one thought that could be broken down in different subcategories. They remind me to have fun, to be happy, to smile, to laugh, to enjoy life, to let go of people and things that stress my heart, to embrace those who do good, to be kind, to bring the stress to a minimum, to love, to never hate, to forgive, to apologize, to be thankful, to be grateful, to cheer for my people, to be proud of what I have become, to be a good son, brother, friend, cousin, boyfriend, employee, to write everyday, to do what I do, to take care of myself, to take care of others, to be mindful of other people’s feelings, to sing, to dance, to be a better version of myself every day, to chase my demons away, to speak my fucking mind, to express my feelings and so many other things.
I have a weird question that tortures my mind from time immemorial. What if once dead, you go up to heaven and Saint Peter, the gatekeeper himself (for my Christian brothers and sisters) asks you if you had fun on earth? What if he told you that the only way to enter heaven and enjoy eternal bliss is directly proportionate to how much you enjoyed your life while on earth? What if that was the meaning of life? What if…Wouldn’t that be something…
That is a big “what if”. No one knows why we are here. No one will ever figure that out. That is a certainty. Yet, we tend to be serious, too serious, to be preoccupied with stuff that don’t matter in the end. I don’t have any more answers than you do. My clarity moments are something. They always surprise me because they just come out of the blue or sometimes they are related to me realizing I am blessed to a certain extent. As soon as I have this encounter with reality, I just freeze. I look up in the sky and I thank all the Gods for my blessings.
Do I deserve what I have received so far? I don’t know. Maybe I do, maybe I don’t. There are some people less fortunate than me and others who are more fortunate. Did they deserve any of it? The good or the bad? Who knows! We will never know. Those who believe in karma will have a different theory. Again, who the fuck knows! Maybe they are right, maybe they are not.
I am sure that you also have those “clarity moments”. Please don’t ignore them. Please embrace them. Life, once again, is short. We all know that. I don’t believe that there is a better way to live than enjoying your life. That doesn’t mean you need to show off or brag. If you want to do that, go ahead, we live in a free world, it doesn’t matter to me one bit. I am just trying to say that enjoying life, for the right reasons, is better. Enjoying life for your own sake, because you feel happy, because you want to be happy, because you want to share that happiness, that is the best thing you could do for yourself and others.
What makes you happy? That is your thing, you have the answer to that. Do whatever makes you happy and enjoy life. The “clarity moments” are just a reminder to live a life that fulfills you. Nothing more, nothing less. I am sure you have a lot to be thankful for. So, be thankful, count your blessings and enjoy your life.
Just one man’s opinion…
Now, smile, enjoy life, embrace the “clarity moments” and go on with your day.